Shiva sutra: Living home for sannyas

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Living home for sannyas

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‘Like one common mother, the child leaves mother, always feels very sad .I don’t want to let go. Can you explain if you can, what was your mother’s reaction when you left your home?’ ‘I know you will not let go that is why I did not take birth to you. That is why I did not take birth to you. I can say if mother is too possessive of a child she will not even give birth. What to do then? Even giving birth is a form of a let go. She’s allowing him to leave the body. Only a mother, who’s ready to allow that next level explosion to happen, who’s ready to go, who’s ready to give inspiration, or is ready to allow can be the real mother. Understand, if you are that possessive, if you are that much sad, then you should not even give birth. You should continuously feed him through the umbilical chord. The umbilical chord conection should be continuously kept alive. Then carry him continuously,then why are you giving birth. Why are you allowing him to come out? How physically only when you allow him to come out after 9 months he can grow,pyschologicaly after sometime only if you alolw him to break from you, he can grow. Physical disconnection is birth and pschyological disconnection is sanyas. Underrstand, in that way I am very fortunate. When I went and told my mother,it was late night, still I remember, late night around 11’o clock. I went to temple and spent some time and usually that is the time when I come back. When I come back,I had my own key,I’ll open and come inside. I used to wear the wooden sandals so that will creat a big noise and wake up the whole house. The house was stone, granite floor. Those days the Indian houses are all built with the granite and teak wood. My Grandmother used to say that house was 300 years old. 300 years old, something like 10-11 generations, they are living in the same house. Ofcourse a huge house. Whenever I enter with wooden sandals it will make such a big sound tatak tatak tatak and they will wake up. She will wake up and prepare the food I want to eat. If I had finished eating in the temple itself then I’ll say good night that’s all. She got up and she was about to prepare the food. I called her and said “See I have decided that I am going to go for sanyas. So you can give me food tonight, even though I’ve finished eating, you acan give this food. I’ll eat because from tomorrow I’m not going to be here. I am going for Sanyas.” It was a very casual announcement to her. Ofcourse surely she had a shock and she did not tell anything and another one thing all of them knew from the beginning talking, convincing or nothing will work with me. All they knew is, before telling I’ll be very clear. But when I say, it means it’s going to be done, that’s all. And then she just started pouring, the tears were rolling from her eyes. I looded at her and asked “What do you mean? Do you mean to say that I should not go?” She just moved her head saying no. “No I did not say that. All I think is, all I am crying because I am not able to control, accept. That’s all. But I can’t say you cannot go” Because she knows one day it will happen. The beauty is never said no. Not only never said you cannot go, she told my father, he’s telling that. My father started thinking she shouted at me and created some problem, that’s why I am telling. “Why did you shout at him? Why did you crate any problem? And you know how he is” And my mother said “No I did not shout or anything. He just came and told and everything”. Then my father understood that the situation was not fight and anything. It was straight, simple declaration. My father came to me and he sat and asked me. On faunny thing, you know in those days they used to call meas Swami. Even in those days the title of Swami. He asked me “What Swami, what are you telling. I heard that your mother was telling something” I said “ Yes. I’ve decided I want to take Sanyas and I want to become enlightened.” And it was a shock to him. But he sw that I am very clear, balanced, cool, relaxed. Then he made only one statement. “If you fall sick just tell us that. We want to take care of you” That’s all. He said is “ If at all you fall sick anywhere during your travel, please inform us. We want to take care of you. That is the only thing we want, nothing else. You do what you want” Never stood in between. Understand only the parent, any relationship, when they are ready to allow the next phase, only then it’s a healthy relationship. I have seen, thousands of youngsters who are really inspired, bold enough, courageous to take up this path, seeking bud did not even had a chance to explore because of the parents. What they have done, by marrying? And they have lived all their lives and they want to make their kids also just the same, like the buffaloes. Tha’s what they did. No it’s a lesson, whoever listens, let it be in record, tha’s why I am talking. It’s forever. The future. Understand very rarely few souls get the insipiration to explore. If al all you see I am not saying train your kids or force you kids to become Swamis. No!. If at all they discover, that click, do not stand in between. You will be blessedif you don’t stand inbetween. Stop from all you attachments. Even if he cries and struggles nd becomes a failure, nothing wrong. I would have been a failure for atleast ten times in my ten births. That’s why this time I am successful. So it is good, any exploration, any research, any adventure in the conscious field should be encouraged, allowed and supported. Try atleast not to do that regular mistakes in your life.

I really won’t want to get out of these attachments and expectations. But having a very hard 

time. Then have a hard time. What to do? Then what to do? There was one great, I still always remember them with so much of respect and grati5tude. Just because they did not disturb me. Nothing else. Neither they disturbed before enlightenment nor they disturbed after enlightenment. That is the great thing.