1994 - Diary Pages Written by SPH age 16
| Archives of Sovereign Details | |
| Date/Year | 1994 |
| Origin of Item | Pushpa Samadhi |
| Item Type | Document |
| Item Dimentions | 12.5" w x 6.8" h |
| Item Material | Paper |
| Age of SPH | 16 |
| AssociatedGuru | Narayana Swami |
| Location | Tiruvannamalai, Tamil Nadu, South India |
| Role in the Revival of KAILASA | These diary pages reveal the incomparable intensity of SPH at the age of 16 in order to exist in the space of Oneness, and Nirvikalpa Samadhi as a model for people in the path seeking enlightenment. |
| Associated Kingdom | Kailasa Paramparagatha Adi Arunachala Sarvajnapeetha Samrajyam |
In The Avatār's own words:
"These are diary papers written by Me, revealing deep self-introspection.
The sequence that led to this writings is as follows:
I used to regularly meet a Siddha, an eighty-year-old man with mystical powers, who used to sit in a small mandapam – 4-pillared roof - on the Arunācala mountain path in Tiruvannamalai.
That was also the time I internalized a number of tantric techniques from Narayanasamy Thatha, and I was indulging in its play heartily.
This Siddha admonished Me and kicked Me for My indulgence. He said I was prostituting myself, and that I should give up all these practices since they were stalling my spiritual growth. He compared me to Pattinatthar, a famous Tamil personality, who lusted after women despite his spiritual inclinations.
I then threw away all the mantras I had written down and the talismans given by Narayanasamy Thatha, and dedicated Myself to meditation."
Translation:
15 July 1994:
I opened up the talisman given by K.S. Narayanasamy Thatha, read the papers, tore them up, and threw it in the well and in the garbage pile.
16 July 1994:
Today is the auspicious day when Brahmasukhi was beaten by a man, reformed and attained complete wisdom, just like how Saint Pattinatthar attained complete wisdom through the blows of a woman! After an hour and a half of meditation, mind became intensely focussed.
(Brahmasukhi was the title given to me by Kuppammal in her letter of initiation.)